“The idea of creating tintypes (or any film photograph) just to feed a content machine gives me intense anxiety…” photographer Ashley Jennings told us a while back in an interview. Considering how few photographers do this, we’re sure many others can relate. Ashley’s photos are stunning, and you can see them on her Instagram. Inspired by the MoMA exploring art speaking to anxiety, we decided to dive into our archives. The Phoblographer has interviewed several photographers over the years — many of whom have anxiety and openly speak about it with it. This is an exploration. We’re analyzing what 12 different photographers have told us about anxiety and how it fuels them.
All images were used with permission from the photographers in our interviews with them. Lead image by Brett Stanley.
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Expressing the Effects of Anxiety in Photographs
Many photographers that we’ve interviewed in the past have expressed anxiety as a catalyst for how they create their images. We noticed a trend when we went through our archives: many of these photographers were conceptual. In some cases, there’s a lot of self-portraiture. But in almost every case, there is very expressive imagery showing that photography can be a seriously communicative art form.
One of our all-time favorites is from Jonathan Higbee. Jon is ultimately mostly known for his work as a street photographer. But if you’ve ever spoken to him about his background and life, you’ll understand deeper things about him.
“For ‘Akathisia,’ my self-portrait series named after a side-effect of SSRI withdrawal, the fact that there are many days where it’s emotionally impossible for me to leave the apartment into part of the series,” said Jonathan Higbee in our 2016 interview. “All of the series so far has been shot in my NYC apartment, which is not only appropriate for the project — it forces me to be more creative considering the limited space, lighting challenges, and immutable background.” He continued to tell us that he hopes that it helps others too. The feeling of wanting to help others and express their own problems is evident in nearly all the work of photographers we’ve talked to.
In the image above by Higbee, we can see so many elements that show a sense of anxiety in the image.
- Jon is trying to go about doing a mundane task like steaming a shirt
- He’s being actively pulled back into the closet with bloody feet
- There is a hand of something or someone pulling him. And we don’t know what it is.
- The expression on his face
- We’re in a very small space that makes the image feel cramped, and therefore, we get a further sense of anxiousness from the image.
All of this information is evident from a single image. But Jonathan made this into an entire series for us to look at. When you understand Jon’s background, it all comes into clarity. However, even if you didn’t understand where Higbee came from, you’d see what we’re talking about in this image.
Jon, of course, isn’t the only photographer that creates this way — and he’s not as prominently well known for it in comparison to his incredible street photography. Photographer Maren Klemp channels anxiety in a way that’s completely different. For her, it’s all about family, according to interviews that we’ve done with her. Maren makes conceptual photographs that tell stories around several issues around her family. In the photographs, she often uses her own children as subjects.
“Anxiety can make you lose your connection with reality for a short while,” she tells us. “During panic attacks, a lot of strange images pop up in my mind. These images are surreal and have no roots in reality.” The process of making the images kept Maren busy and forced her to deal with her emotions at the same time. Like Jonathan, she chose to not run from them. Instead, she chose to transmute this energy. Maren’s images surely have an impact — though they’re in a more sedate way than what we see from Jonathan. If someone is a parent, they’d probably hate to see their kids in a situation like this. In fact, it’s often said that some of the worst pain is when a parent outlives their child.
Transmuting energy and feelings is often a popular tactic in art. Picasso transmuted love and expressed it as such in his rose period while transmuting sadness during his blue period. Similarly, William Carlos Williams expressed the beauty he found in life through his poetry and tied it in with metaphors and imagery that has left a mark on modern writing today.
A photographer that channels anxiety completey different is Brett Stanley. In our 2022 interview with him, he told he that water makes him anxious — but despite that, he tackles it with underwater photography.
“I feel like I belong when I’m underwater, but it also scares me,” he told us. “I have anxiety about water, and panic attacks, which is really confusing when that’s where my mind goes when I try to relax – but I love it so much that I have to overcome my fear every time just to I can get in the water and feel alive.” Looking at his images, Brett is clearly not running from the water. Instead, he’s trying to tackle his anxiety while distracting his mind and becoming more comfortable. One might think that he’s using the anxiety to focus even harder on making the images better. He in fact builds his own sets and all.
Here are several other photographers that we’ve interviewed who also channel their anxieties.
DJ Morrow
DJ Morrow is a fascinating photographer that uses a lot of balloons in his images. “…I started creating more thoughtful and artistic balloon creations at home as a way of dealing with the emotions of despair and anxiety that come with your entire livelihood disappearing,” he told us in an interview. In his images, we see how it can preoccupy his mind and how he channels it into his creative vision.
Nwabisa Salukazana
In our interview, we spoke of Nwabisa Salukazana‘s photographs as incredible works of conceptual art — and we’re glad that we found him! He tells us about how some of his images try to convey anxiety by using things like a static screen. That’s totally how anxiety can feel at times.
Christy Lee Rogers
Look at the photographs of Christy Lee Rogers, and you’ll see a lot of inspiration from paintings. Always trying to one-up herself, she gets anxiety — which makes her try harder according to what she told us. In her case, she’s using it as creative motivation to always do better. A therapist is bound to always ask you why you have to do better — and we all have our own reasons. But in today’s world, photographers really have to find ways to keep outdoing themselves.
Holly Stones
Photographer Holly Stones is incredible fascinating to us partially because her very intentional use of color. She used to do a lot of photoshop work until he started to want to make more photographs in-camera. “I have suffered a lot with self-doubt, crippling anxiety, and depression over the years,” Holly explains to us in an interview. “Self-portraiture has helped me to channel those emotions. It allows me to express myself vulnerably, which in turn resonates with others and makes me feel connected to the world.” More importantly, it taught her patience, persistence, and to be kinder to herself.
Jaina Cipriano
Jaina Cipriano escaped from a cult growing up. She channels anxiety into work that always feels like we’re recieving a gift from someone. She doesn’t use Photoshop and instead works on making the props herself and doing it all in-camera. We called her the best thing since Gregory Crewdson.
Silvia Alessi
“The mass of ideas that rotates in my head and in my heart is so enormous that sometimes I feel like I cannot grasp it, and this is a source of anxiety,” Silvia Alessi told us in an interview. There’s a lot to unpack in her photographs, and some of it might be disturbing to westerners.
Cherisha Kay Norman
In her photos, Cherisha tries to spread the word about mental health awareness. “The series is mostly trying to depict a visual representation of the sensation of dealing with different types of mental illness, from anxiety, depression, dissociation, mania, and even psychosis,” she said to us in our interview. “I created the double exposure effect in Photoshop because, as someone who deals with chronic mental illness, it feels like I am separating from myself in multiple ways.”
Mariana Cheoo
“Taking photos of myself allowed me to know my imperfections, to know myself as a person, what my limits were and how far I could push myself,” Mariana Cheoo told us in an interview. “I use my body as an art form and the social network, if used wisely, is an important tool to promote it.” In her images, we expression of issues about her body — which are a key source of anxiety for so many people.
Using Photography to Cope
Not every photographer uses and channels their anxiety when they’re photographing. Instead, some try to run from it and use photography as a way to distract their mind from it. “I loved the tactile feeling/sound of cranking the film advance lever and pressing the shutter button of my parent’s old 35mm,” John Barbiaux told us in an interview. “It wasn’t until I was an adult that I started to explore it, mostly as a way to cope with the constant anxiety of my job during the financial turmoil of 2008 (my day job is finance). By then, I was interested in the actual image, so I signed up for a class at my local Ritz Camera store to learn how to use the manual settings on my camera (an Olympus Pen).”
From John’s images, you might get the vibe that he’s really into Stephen King novels. But you may also see a sense of solace that is often found in the work of someone like Todd Hido. If we look at the image plainly as it is, we can see that there is haze and that we’re looking at a gas station with some spotlights on it. Compositionally speaking, it’s a very clean photograph. If someone didn’t know any better, we wouldn’t think that we’re looking at the images of someone running from anxiety. Instead, someone without an education in the arts would say, “That’s cool.”
With this said, photographers can use anxiety in several different ways. Each of the photographer’s that we’ve taken a look at use it to create and capture. Even when they’re capturing, they’re putting a unique spin on the images that we haven’t seen anywhere else.